My most recient school experience

This blog was created to show my little frustration about school. I have to say that I still don't like school. It's actually becoming one of the most painful experiences in my life to date. I knew that I wouldn't like school from the beginning. Anything that pins me down isn't my favorite but I seem to put up with it for one reason or another. For example, work, because I like to have money. School is so someday I can have the money to provide for more than just the small toys that I like to have (like the computer that I bought today). Basically family. So I go to school to jump through the hoops. I enter every semester beyond excited for what is to come and ready to do what it takes to succeed, reading the chapters every day, singing the praises of awesome teachers, and staying on top of all the things that have to be done to succeed. But inevitably, every time, I fail. Not only do I fail, I FAIL. I've realized that part of the problem is the way that I take in information. I look around me and see people avidly writing information in their book, taking that information in as quickly as they can. Others talk a lot to try to absorb all the information they can. Some even write every word that the teacher says and are able to take the information, study it for hours and perfectly answer every question in each question. So what I my purpose in all of this...? I honestly don't know. I've tried writing in the book and don't ever look back. I've written down notes on what the teacher says, and then I lose what I'm supposed to be writing because I'm writing information for the last thing they said. I've tried so many other things. I've pretty much given up on trying. I usually just go on with life hoping that coping will get me the C that I want. I'm realizing that everything that I’ve done gets me nowhere. So really this whole school thing has gone from frustration to anger to acceptance to depression. I don't know what's next, but that's where I am now. Plus, work is very stressful. I am now being expected to take a Sunday shift which I promised myself that I wouldn't ever do. Is it worth the experience? I'm not so sure it is.

Mixing it all up

Well, I'm a night person. I go to bed at night thinking that I won't wake up the next morning... Usually I think that I will wake up after noon. And so I don't usually go to bed every night until 3, 4, or sometimes (probably too many times) 5 am. I also require 8 hours of sleep. When I don't get it, I'm a pretty grumpy and a not-nice person.
So I returned home from Ohio 2 years ago. I came home and promptly got a job working a swing shift (3 to 10pm) working for American Express taking applications over the phone. Then I started working for Dell. They needed night guys and their training was Monday-Friday from 3 to 11pm, so I stopped socializing with people during the week. Then I changed my schedule when I started actually doing the job to some more convenient hours. Had Friday nights off and stuff. Well, lately, I have felt like I have been a little unsocial with people that aren't at work. I guess the best way to say it is that my only social time I got was work and church on Sunday. So I was feeling quite dry. I couldn't go out on dates because I can't figure out how to ask a girl on a lunch date (and I'm usually sleeping) and who is going to take a girl on a date at 4am? So I went to my boss and told him that I wanted to work a morning schedule... I haven't worked a morning schedule since... I just realized I've never worked a job that was in the morning. Now, I do say the morning. I mean to say that it's from 10am to 6 pm. But HEY, I get off at 6 every night. So I promptly dropped all my classes and picked up 2 classes (the last 2 before I have an associates). So now I have a MW evening class from 6 to 7:15, and another class on Saturday morning from 8 to 10. I don't know how I feel about a Saturday morning class, but I'm sure I can pull it off (hopefully).
So for the first time, really, ever, I'm taking a job where I won't work at night. I start Monday and I'm pretty happy about it.